December 25, 2012

Gone, but not forgotten

It has been some time since I blogged or in fact, wrote anything, so now it's a bit like I'm now scared to. For someone who could write around 6 different news type blogs a day this lack of writing is a bit strange.

Realistically it because I've totally lost confidence in my ability to actually write anything useful, relevant or indeed interesting.

Don't get me wrong, I've tried.

Ive researched information on wide ranging topics from the anniversary of 'Casablanca' which is one of my most favourite films to pregnancy, sickness, shootings and even why Rudolph has a red nose....

Which I must admit did appeal to my inner geek.

Lack of self belief sucks almost as much as being overly confident to the point arrogance is annoying as hell for everyone else.

I've even taken to dyeing random bits and areas of my hair bizarre colours in order to find out what's wrong with my whinging, moaning self.

So, how do you 'find yourself' when you realise that you are lost and every day is exactly the same, no one listens to you, no one seems to care about your thoughts, feelings, ideas and abilities.

Well, here is what I'm doing (any assistance in the way of ideas, support, motivation or arse kicking is MORE than welcome)

I'm going to change the things I don't like.

Ta Da!! I didn't even need to read 'Psychology Today' for that.


By the way..... In case you're interested, Rudolph's nose would appear to be red because they have a higher concentration of red blood cells than humans. Apparently 25% more than us humans. Though, I can't find any information in the study about whether or not the bunch of Scientists gave their cocaine supply to the reindeer, or simply kept it to themselves.



In fact, you would even say it glows.... as the infra red photo shows.